harsh reality

 What It's Like When EVERY GUY I Meet Just Wants to Fuck

 I'm talking about the guys who are supposed to be my friend, the guys who I thought I could trust - they're the ones I cannot wrap my head around. Yes i can separate the friends side of this from the work side, which I am aware that not everyone can do, but that's the kind of mentality it takes.

 

 This may be hard to grasp for some, or just plain sad, but it really gets to a point where I am sick of it. Sure, I like to fck as much as the next guy, but damn... i have two points to make here.

 imagine this: if you're a car mechanic for a living, would u want to come home and work on your buddy's car? NO, probably not! just try to fckn be considerate and respectful because it will get u farther with me, and most likely other women u meet!

  and my second point: okay what if every single female u met only wanted u for all your money? 🤑💰 and simply, nothing more. didn't give a fuck about what u said... or how u felt. just wanted to hang out or whatever if she was benefitting financially? how would that feel?

like i've been in a couple of situations where i was crying and they did not care at all, they were just like, "okay so...we can still fck right?" like goddamn. have some self control dude. seriously!!

one of the hazards in this type of job, right? 🙄

my Wit's End

 

Lately…

March 2022

“Your past does not equal your future.” – Tony Robbins

How have I been lately? I have been trying to settle in still.. In the middle of a career shift. I did finish school :) so i am on my way to being a full stack web developer. And thats something I literally obsess over every minute of every day. ✨ but hey that just means i love it right?

So i cant help but kind of feel like i could give some background…some context maybe to my life? So i wasnt raped or abused when i was younger (sry if u thought that!) i have always been a free spirit with an open mind. Because i know what it feels like to be rejected and judged. I was a chubby kid in high school.. So i got made fun of. Wore the ‘gothic’ type clothing, a lot of hoodies and was very insecure - i know right? I got married at 16 yrs old to someone who was my outlet. my mom and i just didnt get along very well. we had very opposing views.

So, I've been married twice. I feel like almost everyone i have ever put any trust in has betrayed me, so it takes me a long time to trust someone new. There are two people who haven't screwed me over. and I talk to them frequently.

So, at age 19 I began using pain pills, within a year I was injecting them. At my very worst moments, I was injecting Opana. (What is opana? Oxymorphone is used to help relieve moderate to severe pain. It belongs to a class of drugs known as opioid analgesics. It works in the brain to change how your body feels and responds to pain.) Then, when I moved away from my small home town in Tennessee, I quit using pain pills and have been off of them since 2017.

why does this keep happening?

😡   One thing I'll never understand...

is how messed up some people are! Like why the hell does it keep happening to me? It seems like I just keep getting fcked over. and trust me, I am careful! but none-the-less... I really wish I knew what I was doing wrong. 

Okay, for instance, this past week I was stuck in Dothan Alabama for 4 days without a ride, without anything! Yeah, I shouldn't have put myself in that position...I agree with that but is it really so wrong that I wanted to believe that wouldn't happen to me?? I actually WANTED to trust this mf. Ugh. All of this just makes me lose faith in people, lose faith in my own judgment...and the list goes on and on. It sucks.

I'm looking for..

I can be all that you could ever imagine and more... we will just have to talk and see! It varies & depends on that chemistry, that mental stimulation, maybe some career guidance; I am finishing a coding bootcamp now(should finish by June) - that is what i'm after. I seek a mutually beneficial type of arrangement. I can also be very accommodating, and I do have my own car... paired with a flexible schedule and 2 energetic four-legged companions.

  I need stability, consistencies & security. I am looking for someone who is patient & age certainly isn't a problem - i actually prefer an older gent. They don't play games and know exactly what they're looking for.

Let's talk; don't be shy.

sexxxy as fck video!!

General rules

  Lately I feel the need to go over some of these ground rules and I really hope you guys read them and can definitely keep these things in mind!! And if you cannot follow these, I suggest you go find another provider! I will start blacklisting phone numbers without warning . Thank you. Xo

• Please do not text me over and over in short amounts of time! This has to stop because this kind of stressor is what makes me put down the phone for the day.
• Be patient with my responses 
• Don't come to my house and sit outside waiting on me without my confirmation!!
• When you do arrive at my place, please do not wander around the parking lot. This kind of thing gets me in trouble.

I'm loving North Carolina.

your questions

Hey sweetie & now for that post about some basics. Here are my rules, rates, preferences, ect.

This stuff is super important to me and is not up for negotiation - please respect that!

 New rates (competitive. Find me a classier lady that is cheaper!)

Incall

200hh

300hr

500 for 90 min

Outcall

250hh

350hr

550 for 90 min

Additional times are definitely available - just let me know.

Rules are

No bare. Period

Don't finish in ny mouth

No greek.

Moving to NC

  This lady is moving to Raleigh in a couple of weeks! No more beach and no more rude, shady pensacola people! I must say...I've had the absolute worst luck with people here. I am almost finished with the coding bootcamp I've been doing - intensely. Raleigh is a growing city and ranked highly by Forbes. So, with that said - and the fact that there isn'ty anything but horrible, painful memories in Pensacola - I am beyond ready to start over! North Carolina, here i come!!

I am glad I'm going. 

stereotypes...

Typical Hang-ups..comes with the territory.

Assumptions make an “ass” out of you and me!

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& like a phoenix she rose from the ashes.

 Word of advice here… it’s really very unkind to automatically assume ANYTHING about a call girl, an escort, a hooker...whatever u want to call it. I find that it is hard to maintain a personal life because of stereotypes...however u may look at it, and yes i know its human nature to form that impression quickly when meeting someone. Did u ever stop to consider u could be missing out on a beautiful human being in that few minutes of ignorance?

really ♥️ bondage

  I absolutely love having my pussy licked... Anytime I want. Someone who is good, who can get me soaked just by getting close to it. Gentleness, no fingers, no sucking...
  Softly, slowly, teasingly... Sloppy; make out with it!! Worship my body. I wanna feel how bad u wanna make me cum .
  -on the flip side of this, there is nothing that turns me on more than feeling a man grow hard in my mouth, down my throat...being a little rough with me (zero fucks given about it) and if he can lick pussy and soak the bed also...omfg, thats my weakness.-

  I am also one of the BEST in the game when it comes to deepthroating, and having my throat fucked...just saying! I truly love that power play aspect. Please me and that favor will be returned seven-fold.

  Want to meet the girl that you'll have such a hard time forgetting. The electricity you feel as soon as you are in her presence. The girl who can make you feel things that you simply can't describe. That superior confidence, that striking beauty and even more beautiful personality. oh, and when i say confident I'd never mean overbearing or the kind that could intimidate you...unless your're into that type of thing. haha!

  I do have experience in a Dom/Sub relationship...as both the Domme and the Sub. Honestly, more-so being dominated. That comes with some trust however, so please don't naively try to jump into anything too intense at first. I have also learned that the Dominating partner has to pay attention to how the sub (me, usually) reacts!! It is crucial to be able to pick up on my cues and if i am safe-wording out.

I keep an open mind; have almost heard it all...no shame there.